Did this tittle like HIT YOU?! Take a step back and take a deep breath… let it sink in… Are you allowing yourself to embrace the fact that YOU ARE *B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L*? Other people around us see and tell us every day but are you finding yourself brushing this fact off?
I’m right with you! My internal convos – because I talk to myself on the regular – I mentally force the convo to take a positive tone. I am Woman, I am Strong and YES, UNIVERSE… I. AM. BEATIFUL! Many of us have moments of self doubt, no matter how strong or how accomplished. Give yourself a mental shake to hone in and radiate with this feeling of self love and with.
Okay, are we vibing with BEAUTY yet? Good!
If you take a short trip through my Blog Posts you will find many featuring swimwear and bikinis/fatkinis. These were the pieces of clothing that made me run the other way when faced with the fact that a “bathing suit” is required to enjoy time at the pool or water park. I wanted to hide under a rock and cover every roll, wrinkle, dimple, loose skin and imperfections that I saw as if they had neon lights pointing them out for the world to see!
Not too long ago there came a day that I made myself face ALL my fears. I purchased bikini/fatinkini pieces that collected dust in a drawer for years! It soon became my drawer of shame – a reminder of my inability to wear these items because I was ashamed. Yes, the word is: ashamed. I heard every negative comment, hurtful joke and sneer come at me when I opened that drawer.
One day I looked in to my Daughter’s eyes and said:
“I NEED to SHOW my Daughter what loving ourselves is. The world rarely showed this to me and if I can’t do this I can’t expected anyone else to do it for me.”
I was a mess those first swimsuit shoots. BUT with every subsequent photo shoot I became more determined to allow myself to feel beautiful. It’s been a few Summers and each becomes an achievement. Each becomes a triumph of overcoming a fear…. a shame… that my Daughter sees nothing but strength. May these continued posts fill you with the affirmation of love and acceptance I am sending to you and all the little girls searching for it.
Here is a bikini/fatkini that collected dust in that drawer of fear. I have taken it’s debilitating hold it had on me and now stare at it with triumph!
Are you joining me in setting free the beauty we ourselves have been holding back? Affirm it with a comment below and if you wish me to share your swimsuit of DEFIANCE please email or tag me on Instagram.